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Journal Entry: Wed Oct 3, 2012, 1:16 PM


Ugghh sorry for being slow with commissions, I have been sick, throwing up, in horrible pain and unable to eat hardly since saturday. Apparently I have a horrible stomach parasite FUN STUFF.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

TGT Secret Santa! - Last day to enter!

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 2, 2012, 6:14 AM


Hey guys! Christmas is only two months away, and I'm looking to start an artistic Secret Santa!

What is Secret Santa?

For us, it will be this:

1. You Note me the application below
2. I will randomly give you another person's application
3. You draw what they want
4. You turn it in
5. And you get your own piece of art from someone random as well!

Basically, a random gift-giving event of art! You never know who you might get paired with or what you might get! It's really fun, easy, and a great way to make someone's day with a nice piece of gift art, and you get one as well!
Kind of like a randomized art trade!

Interested? Then just note me this form at the bottom, don't post it publicly, that ruins the surprise! I will be taking applications until October the 12th! Then I will announce pairings between then and October 14th. Once you get your partner, you can submit your gift at any time, but they must be turned in by December 22nd at the latest! Please provide me a link to your art once it's completed so I can alert the person/make sure you did it!

Some rules/guidelines:
1. Whoever's form you get doesn't mean they got yours! You could have gotten a completely different person, it won't be a two-way art trade.
2. Please, please, please if you sign up, actually participate. What could make someone sadder than working their ass off for a gift for someone else, then getting nothing in return?
3. You can submit your art to DA/FA/Tumblr whenever you want after you get your pairing, but please have it turned it by December 22nd!
4. Give the kind of effort and quality you'd want to see. You don't have to do a masterpiece, but don't give a shitty half-assed sketch either! :C
5. That being said, you never know who you will be receiving artwork from until it's done, since it's up to each artist, I can't really guarantee what medium, quality or type you'll get, it's a surprise! But think of how happy you'll make someone for a little surprise!
6. Let's all be good sports! This is just for fun, you get free art, and you get to make some stranger happy or at least give them some (cash-wise)free artwork! Everyone likes free, right?
7. Just because more often than not people are not willing to draw porn, please do not ask for it. I'm going to say gore is okay, but I will try to pair up people who want gore with people who are OK drawing it
8. I will do my best to compensate for anyone who does not get a gift.
9. You must have at least a semi-active alt in The Golden Tether!
10. What is most recommended is you doing a piece of artwork you value at around 20$, whether that's a highly detailed sketch or a painting depending on the judgement of your own skill. That way everyone gets a more equal return.
11. Doing at least lineart is highly encouraged just to be fair, but if you feel like your sketches are awesome and work 20$, and you put some time and effort into it, that's awesome as well!


The form:




Your DA/FA/Tumblr:
Your main furcadia alt:
Your e-mail: (in case we can't reach you, or your partner wishes to send you a high-res version or a remap port, etc etc)
What you're willing to give: (Regular art/furcadia portraits/pixel tags)
What you're not willing to draw: (EX gore and other things. Don't worry about porn, and please do not request it)
Preference of what you'd like to receive: (Regular art/furcadia portraits/pixel tags)
Name of the character(s) you want drawn: (I say "Characters" because you may give more than one character for the other person to choose from. Whether they draw one or all is up to them!)
Links/references/detailed PHYSICAL description of the character(s):
Brief, simple description of personality:
Preferred Pose/mood/action (Once again, as this is a gift from a random artist, I can't guarantee 100% they will do it exactly as you want!)

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

Bermuda, Bahama, come on pretty mama

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 28, 2012, 10:57 PM


SO. October 7th- 11th I will probably be going on vacation to the Gulf of Mexico if not the Bahamas. Nothing is set in stone yet but SFDFSFSFSD BAHAMAS OMG.

My bros
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Emergency commissions

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 13, 2012, 9:33 AM


So.. I need money badly, between Food, Parking tickets, College, my Car, and trying to buy a new laptop, I just really need some cash.

So I am opening regular ports for 15$





1. Anon - waiting on info
2. Annibale - Sketching
3. Senny - sketching
4. Laurent - sketching

My bros
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I'm feeling reminiscent

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 7, 2012, 11:50 AM


I suddenly miss a lot of my old Invader Zim fandom friends.
WHERE YOU GUYS AT? I miss RPing Shojah as an alien sometimes, LOL

My bros
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Moved out + 30 day art challenge

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 2, 2012, 6:44 AM


I am FINALLY moved into my new place! Which means better internet and more availability and shit! And less distance to drive to work LOL. I AM HAPPY <3


I know I made a poll but fuck it, I'm doing it anyway. Because I honestly think this will help me, once I got the themes I actually got excited to start drawing again so..

Basically I have to draw 1 theme from this list every day. I can draw other things, but I have to draw the theme for that day if at all possible. It can be anything from a sketch to a finished piece, I just have to draw SOMETHING. And I'm starting today.

So I used the 100 Themes Challenge list, then rolled a 1d100 dice 30 times on an online dice-roll generator, and these are the numbers I got, and will be done in the order listed:


80. Villain
55. Optimism

30. Notes
36. Dancing
85. Please
70. All the Little Things
33. Breaking Point
27. Freedom Isn't Free
65. Black and White
67. Death
23. Birthday
2. Hardship
37. Don't Go
14. Cruel
99. Tranquil
61. Speak
39. Betrayal
86. To and From
45. Be a Man
60. Worse
11. Secret
94. Race
40. Due Date
41. Sealed in Blood
20. Burning
57. I'm In
82. Don't Make a Sound
97. This is Home
43. Party
24. Rocks Aren't the Same

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

New Icon

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 31, 2012, 4:15 PM


dfadsfsdfadssfs ; 3 ;

My bros
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The little things

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 25, 2012, 5:04 PM


So today started out shitty. Woke up at 6 AM to get to work, run in, and find out my shift has been changed to 10...
I get sick on Hydrocodone
I find out I've only got 31-30 hours each for the next three weeks, which are part time numbers
When I was hired, I was told by two seperate people I was FULL TIME.
I go up to the personnel office, oh lol nope you're part time. But they've been giving me 40 hours a week for three months! With no full time benefits! So I am going to have it out with my shift manager tomorrow.
Rude customers, cut in pay, less hours, being sick, I was having a shitty day.

Then, it happened.

There is a middle aged, sickly black man that works the cashier on the inside. He's rather large, has heart problems, cancer, and other issues but is always very witty, funny, kind and has been an excellent teacher to me so far. I told him once before that I wanted to go get a degree in art and be an artist one day... Well today he came in with a little box and handed it to me. And I nearly cried on the spot and it's making me tear up right now, because it was one of the nicest, sweetest things anyone has done for me in a long time. He had seen me draw on scraps of paper at work, just little doodles on the backs of old schedules and papers.. And what he got me was a small plastic clipboard/box, a bunch of pencils, several erasers, a sharpener, some pens, and a stack of paper. And he kind of smirked and put a hand on my shoulder and said: "Now I don't normally do this because I'm a cheap bastard, but I don't want you to leave this job without me getting to see some of your work." Ugh guys. I seriously almost lost it. I almost burst out crying in the middle of the TLE in a wal mart because of this man. Because all my life, very, very few people in the real world have ever taken an interest in my art, my family least, my immediate family least at all. My parents always grimaced at my artwork, muttering about how I should be a nurse or an engineer or something "worthwhile".
So to have this man, who I've known for barely three months do this for me and say those words just.. I couldn't give a fuck about anything bad for the rest of the day. And now, when I can, I'm going to draw something really nice for him. Because no one in my real life has ever cared as much as this one man.

So I just want to say thank you, for those supporting me in real life and online, thank you all who have ever given me a kind word, a stern critique, or even just a favorite. Everything you all do matters to me, and I mean it. Thank you all so much, and hopefully I can get my life together soon and start giving back to those who have helped me.

My bros
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Stressed out

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 21, 2012, 4:31 PM


Life keeps throwing me curveballs guys, and I sincerely apologize. Commissioners, if you want to cancel your commissions, just send me a note, but this is my statues:

Nadia Ledia - 1 inked, 1 sketched
Grymn - Port sketched and fixed, lineart sketch very rough
Halothane - Started shading
Zeller - not started

for Nadia and Halothane, yours will certainly be finished as soon as I am able because you have already paid.

My father, who has been pledging to give me a little bit of money every month to help pay for college has suddenly cut me off and gave me no reason. He says he will still pay my car insurance, health insurance, and cell phone bill.. but how long can I beleive that? My car is in his name.. what if he suddenly decides to take it from me?

So I'm having to pay for my classes entirely out of my own pocket instead of partially as was talked about.. and I only have so much in my savings and it'll be totally gone within a year, and that was supposed to be my backup/emergency funds. After a year all I will have is roughly 1000 bucks in my checking that I'll have to fall back on if things go wrong.
but gods damn it all, I refuse to stay in this household. I am still moving out regardless and If it looks like I can't pay rent, I'll find somewhere else to live. I am not fucking staying here anymore - I can't. They're throwing so much bullshit on me.
On top of that work has chopped my hours down to part time but still  has me listed as being full time, and due to our shift manager being a lazy asshole and not fixing the Shop's schedules, I work crazy fucking hours like from 6-2, when the shop doesn't open until 7, and we're short handed on people because we can't work without two techs in the shop, and the machine generator never schedules two people working at the right time.. HE'S supposed to be doing that, then we get in trouble when there's no when scheduled to work for 3 hours in the day...
And I have to move sometime in between work and school..
And I have to try and fix one of my college classes or else I'll lose ANOTHER 8 hours from work every week and possibly be ofically bumped down to part time, and I can't pay rent on part time..
I have to figure out how to pay for college now..
And I owe so many of you art and I feel horrible for not being able to pull through but my muse has been so dead.. and when I get a little bit of inspiration all I want to draw is my own things to releive the stress, but it pains me because I know you all are waiting... I have so many commissions and art trades and gifts to do and I'm just so sorry.

I just don't know how I'm going to fix all this, I'm sorry.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

....

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 14, 2012, 6:27 PM


Hey guys. I'm moving very soon. After orientation and after I get a wisdom tooth pulled my parents agreed to help me move whenver I am ready. Whoo! I am excited. Life is moving forward. Classes start on the 22nd, I am nervous about it fucking up my ability to work 40 hrs a week which I need to make rent. But at least my home life has calmed down again, it was getting pretty bad. My father and I currently aren't speaking much, but I can deal with that for now. Less stress. Kind of.

My bros
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Know any good books?

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 13, 2012, 10:34 PM


I want to read a few. I haven't read any good books in a while.

I'm looking for historical fiction, that would be great but I'm open to anything.
Vikings. If it's about vikings you get +++ bonus points. Saxons, celts, Anglos, Goths, even medieval, anything like that.
But again, open to almost anything.

Except the hunger games or 50 shades of gray. Just no. Sorry.

My bros
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Know any good books?

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 13, 2012, 10:34 PM


I want to read a few. I haven't read any good books in a while.

I'm looking for historical fiction, that would be great but I'm open to anything.
Vikings. If it's about vikings you get +++ bonus points. Saxons, celts, Anglos, Goths, even medieval, anything like that.
But again, open to almost anything.

Except the hunger games or 50 shades of gray. Just no. Sorry.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

To get the blood in my brain flowing again

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 11, 2012, 5:30 PM


Raginfrik:
Your character is in a stable relationship of some description (if they are not in a relationship in the canon of your story, assume this hypothetically). Your character discovers that their partner has been cheating on them. How does your character react?
He would probably be very distressed and very angry. He would most definitely confront his partner and depending on how they acted would decide his own actions. If they too became angry [perhaps unhappy with the relationship or something like that] then he too, would be angry and likely kick them out and not have anything to do with them, even if they came back crying. If his partner was sad and upset and regretted the decision, he would probably split with them but keep in contact and possibly try and save the relationship over time.



Does your character hold any religious or otherwise existential beliefs? If so, what inspired them to hold those beliefs? If not, why?
He was born into a Pagan family that while not overly pious, still worshipped the Norse Pantheon and were firm in their beliefs. Around age 13 he became friends with a Christian priest [keep in mind this is around the end of the Viking Age] hiding in a local village who managed to convince him to convert. He used tricks like flipping his Mjolnir pendant upside down and saying how it looked like a cross. How Odin nailed himself to a tree for the alphabet and Jesus was nailed to a cross. How they worshipped the Son of thier Main god [Odin, all father and his son, Thor] and Christianity was the same. He also played on Raginfrik's uncertainty that the gods existed at all, for they never seemed to be in Raginfrik's favor as a child, between his being the second youngest and likely never going to be entitled to anything and being betrothed to a rather saucy wench at age 14.  Over time, with Raginfrik being a very curious boy, by age 15 he had converted and was soon discovered and exiled from his homeland. He stayed a christian for all 12 years of his exile. But on his 11th year, when he returned home and found it destroyed and thought his family dead he began to question any gods at all. A year later, after finding his family and getting his hand cut off in battle by his older brother to "Make a point" about his 'nailed god' not giving a shit about him, he converted back to Paganism after he believed Odin answered a prayer of his.



If you asked your character what his/her favorite color is, what would they say? Is there any reason they resonate with that particular color?
He would probably say red, because it is the color of the blood of his slain enemies, and the color that looks best on the end of his sword. In reality he leans strongly towards green. It is the color of apples, his favorite food, a color his Mother often wore [he's a momma's boy], he loves to sleep in grass, which is also green. It calms him and makes him think of happy things [Apples, his mother, sleeping].



Does your character have any deep-seated fears? Do these fears motivate how your character acts in his/her day-to-day life?
He would never admit it to anyone, and only scratches at the surface when 'admitting' it to himself but he is absolutely paralyzed by the fear of becoming a failure. Again. In anyone's eyes. His deepest fear is failure. Failure as a man, as a brother, as a warrior, as a father. He was already a failure once when his conversion to Christianity was discovered and he was cast out of his clan, and now that he is back home, the last thing he wants to do is feel like that again. He tries too hard to try and prove himself worthy and has almost alienated himself anyway during that process. Finally, however, he has decided it is not worth trying anything anymore, and no longer wants to strive for anything and instead will simply sit and let the world move him.
Another fear is that of his own brother, Ulfrik. He is nearly terrified of him and yet strives to impress him all the same. They were Fairly close as kids, in a kind of, Big badass brother and little annoying shit kind of way, And Ragin honestly misses that but since his arrival, he feels very intimidated by him and believes Ulfrik is just waiting for an excuse to get rid of him. He finds it hard to fight those thoughts and recent events [Ulfrik nearly killing him while under magical influence] haven't helped his thoughts. There are times when he debates leaving the fort entirely and setting up a home somewhere else. But there is still a part of him that wants to do his brother proud, that wants his family to return to a comfortable normalacy, and repair his relationship with ALL his brothers, not just Ulfrik, since he 'failed' them so long ago and still feels as though they see him as an outcast.



Does your character have any particular pet peeves or annoyances? If so, is there any particular person, thing or event that caused your character to have this annoyance?
-Being called gay or any implication that he may be homosexual. He traveled with a gay Roman soldier for 8 years of his 12 exile. The man kept him basically as a slave, and Raginfrik often wonders how he was able to fight off his advances all those years. It is a touchy subject for him, deeply personal and only one person knows about it, and so even the slightest comment on his sexuality sets him alight.
-Questioning of his manhood/integrity/honor. Because of a life filled with being forced to murder, steal and lie because of his Roman capturer, he is struggling and tries very hard to restore his personal honor, humanity and integrity and takes insults to it very seriously.
-Being ignored. He absolutely HATES when people obviously or unintentionally ignore or fail to hear him, or even not listen to his advice. It's different if his advice is proven faulty, then he doesn't mind. But he barely spoke, or had anyone to speak to on his exile and now that he's around people again, by the gods he wants his voice to be heard.


How does your character feel about his/her appearance? Has any part of their appearance been changed (e.g. tattoos, unusual hair colors, piercings)? If so, why did your character want to make that change?
Honestly he thinks he looks a'ight. He knows he might not be the sexiest hunk of man on the block but he can live with that, and it's never stopped him from pretending he's some high-dollar shit and be confident in his charm. He's missing some teeth and they're kinda yellowed, his body is hairy and his scars are plentiful, deodorant doesn't exist, but he takes good care of himself when he can. He's began cleaning his teeth since discovering it was possible, and bathes weekly, hair washed twice a week because of the length. [Keep in mind again, viking age. most people back then might have bathed once a month]. He's gotten a few tattoos for religious purposes, and pierced his nipples because his lover, Bryg, said she would do hers if he did, and he finds hers pleasing. His own get on his nerves more often than not, rubbing between his flesh and his armor so he rarely wears them unless he's at home with her.



What are your character's primary goals/dreams/ambitions? Why does your character want to attain this goal?
-Approval. From many people, but especially his lover Bryg and, above all, from his brother Ulfrik, though he has stopped trying so feverishly to reach that goal. IF he can have this he would die content, even if he was poor and without a home. He seeks this because he feels like his integrity and honor have been tainted by his exile, that he was a failure for being cast out, and seeks security, more or less, that what he did is in the past and no one sees him poorly for it. Social acceptance.
-Family. This goal has been more or less reached. He has 3 beautiful children and a loving girlfriend who he hopes to marry eventually. One of his duties as a man is to raise a strong family, and he's on his way to filling that duty, which is helping his want of acceptance and approval.
-Renown. Like all great warriors of his family, he wants his valiant deeds and glorious battles whispered about through the ages, for his name to carry a weight of honor and nobility among his ilk for centuries to come.
-Higher Social Status. Back on approval and renown. He would like to become Jarl of the Ulfrikson Clan one day, but that is a dream he has mostly put on the shelf. Instead he is half-heartedly seeking out to become Ulfrik's Thegn. If he gets the position he will be happy and content, if he does not, then it is no skin off his back. He has recently been debating making a clan of his own but still being loyal to Ulfrik, who would be the High Jarl to his Jarldom.


If your character fails miserably and loses sight of his/her goal (if you answered that your character doesn't have any huge goals/ambitions, assume this is a short-term or small goal), what happens next?
Likely, if he didn't kill himself he would go into a severe depression for the rest of his life and be unable to shake off his overwhelming feeling of failure. He would leave the fort, if still living there, possibly with or without his family, and set up a new, small, humble homestead far away from anyone that might have known him. He would be quiet, lonely, and miserable for the rest of his life.


When making friends or allies, what qualities does your character look for in others?
Honor and Loyalty. He has had his taste of the darker, more villianous side of life and does not like it, and know what people form that crop are capable of. He looks for someone usually with good integrity and a strong sense of willpower. Someone he can help, and who can help him.

And I have been working on this for sgdfsd hours I am done

My bros
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Uuugh

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 31, 2012, 4:51 AM


Guys I am trying so hard to work on your commissions, I promise, LOL. Work has been running me into ground since I'm finally getting all my hours [40, compared to 28 and 34 a  few weeks ago] and now college is being juggled at me and I'm having to sort that out too. Hopefully I can catch a few breaks on my days off before college starts.

In other news I'll be moving in a month or so. Or, that's the plan anyway. so that's another thing adding to the pile, I'll just be making a lot of IRL  adjustments for a bit.

I AM STILL WORKING ON THEM. JUST PAINFULLY SLOW>

My bros
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Muse. Help.

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 20, 2012, 7:40 PM


guys. what do you do to get out of an art block. I was able to color maniere's pic only cause I love coloring. Bocca's sketch nearly killed me. I have. No. drive. at all. I have all my commissions except my newest one at least started but I can't bring myself to finish the sketches. and I WANT to work on them but I just CAN'T. It's like every day, days off, or even days when I have a lot of free time I just CANNOT bring myself to pick up my tablet and really do anything.

HELP ;^; What do. What do you guys do to get out of art blocks? I kind of think.. coloring things.. or doig my own art might help but then I feel bad for not working on you guys' commissions and I turn into a sobbing ball of self hate. And I've beeing doing this cycle for weeks now.

heeeeeeeeeelp

My bros
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JOIN ME - on

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 12, 2012, 6:29 PM


Going to try and livesteam for a few hours! I'm working on a collab at the moment but if it gets done before I leave in a few hours I will start working on my commissions. I have *most* of them at least somewhat sketched..

Commissions: [In sequential order, which I am going to try and do them in]

3. Grymn - lineart and port
4. Halili - full shaded full body
5. Zeller - 2 person waist lineart and port

If I'm forgetting anyone, please let me know!

My bros
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Stress

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 7, 2012, 10:39 AM


Stress, why can't you leave me alone on my day off.  why can't you let me hang out with my friends without throwing horseshit around.

Muse. Why can't you work on my days off.

Sorry to my commissioners, my progess is horribly, horribly slow as of late because of my job, Online crap, and mostly my parents making threats against me. Again. I'll try and have them done ASAP, especially for those who have paid.

My bros
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Furc rp minirant >.0

Journal Entry: Sat Jun 30, 2012, 6:14 AM


You. You people. YOU people, who have a STABLE and GOOD internet connection that actually lets you run around on Furcadia, YOU people who have the ability to sit around and be online all day; you people, don't whine to me about not getting any RP. You have all day. And a good connection. Even the days when I am able to be online all day my internet is too shitty to let me do anything in the place I enjoy RPing the most. So don't whine to me. You have all damn day to look for RP.  I have a few hours in the morning when I'm able to RP and if I wanna RP I DAMN WELL MAKE IT HAPPEN.

So don't sit there, and tell me to my face, that you've been sitting online for five hours and "you can't find any RP." Don't you have any drive? Are you that self centered or lazy that you won't put yourself out there? that you won't even TRY, and then have the AUDACITY to complain.

Ugh.

If I hear one more person complain about how they can't get any RP; or "I want this to happen but no one else will do it for me"[usually said in different wording]; or "ugh I'm so bored there's no one to RP with" I will lose my mind. Lose. My. Mind.

I've RPed once in the last 4 days. Amd I complaining? no. Because when I DO have time, I'm finding RP or ways to RP. Seriously people. Like I said, I get maybe... 2 hours, if that, in the morning where I am able to be in TGT. If I want to RP any other time. I have to physically drive myself to another location, usually one that is an hour and 15 minute drive from where I live. Are you putting forth any kind of effort at all? Maybe if you get your thumbs out of your asses and stop being so full of yourself and TRY you would have more people to RP with :1


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I just. With all that I try and do.. I just can't stand it when people sit in the same spot all day, never post, are rude to people OOC or even the friendly ones, but all they do is sit there and never whisper anyone and post out.. and then they.. complain...

BC

My bros
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10 Art Features

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 26, 2012, 6:23 AM


Be one of the first 10 people commenting on this journal entry, and I'll put your avatar and three deviations that I think are the coolest in this "Share the Art" feature.

IMPORTANT: If you do comment, you're expected to do the same in your own journal; putting me on the first place!

The idea behind this is NOT to get a free feature, but to help spread art and artists around for everyone. So be a nice guy!

1. :icontartthief:

2. :iconaddragoon:

3.:icondivorce-me:

4.:iconpostey:

5. :iconbritbau:

6. :iconani-sempai:

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Update!

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 25, 2012, 7:12 PM


So my job is pretty awesome... I'm enjoying it so far and all the employees I've met so far are some of the nicest people I have ever met. My managers are awesome, one even asked me what degree I was persueing and when I told him he flipped his shit with excitement, telling me a story about how he supported another girl to do art and now she's making 6 digits in Oregon. And then the other one was also supportive, saying he had a friend that was basically doing the same thing. Then all the guys in the garage are really patient and helpful. The Training machines have been broken so we trainees had to shadow our departments until our shifts ended. And though the garage is hot, they have big fans blowing and keeping the air circulated and it's not so bad, plus Wal-Mart provides us with as much free water bottles as we can drink. and like I said, everyone is nice and helpful ;3;

SO YEAH It's not so bad. I'm enjoying it so far, I think it's the thrill of learning something new and working with my hands.. and not to mention it's real-life work experience? I mean, I might could apply somewhere else as some kind of minor mechanics job if I'm able to stick around here long enough.

And since no one wanted those cheap commissions I'll be closing them and doing my own examples. I feel like triyng to paint things again. After my current commissions.


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My schedule is going to be a little hectic fir a few days. IDK when I will be able to get online/work on art and whatall. As I told you guys, I got the job at Wal-mart and I have a few days of orientation/training. Today was 9-3, tomorrow is 12-9, and the days after that, I get my schedule and all tomorrow. And I'm expecting I'll be wore out for a while, since I'll be working in a hot car garage all day and just today it hit 108 degrees Fahrenheit [which is like.. close to 40 Celsius I want to say. Between 35-40 would be my best guess] and it's not cooling off any time soon. So be patient with me, it's going to be rough! New, physical job plus moving, it's going to be a little wonky for a while but I will try and get your work done ASAP for those who have paid me. Other commissioners.. I might have to put you on hold until I can get my shit worked out.

My bros
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