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Time to get the gorey journal off my page.

shit is still going, I have a lot of old art I need to upload here

I seriously cannot win for losing

Fri May 3, 2013, 2:45 PM
WARNING: GRAPHIC, GOREY BLOODY PIC?? not really I cleaned most of the blood off but its still gross

So, here I aam, working on a car, my shift ends in ten minutes. I cant wait to get home I think, because I actually feel inspired to draw.
Suddenly, this heavy ass battery I am trying to lower into the car slides off the support I had it on and slams my right thumb between the side of the battery, and a narrow, horizontal piece of the car's frame. The result:



That black piece of skin is loose and barely hanging on but I'm too chicken to peel it off, so I just gently stroked it back into place. if you remove that you can see the exposed nail underneath.It extends down about aquarter of an inch from the bottom of my nail, the picture quality sucks -_-

Needless to day it hurts. really badly. and is totally useless.

so whoo. fucking. whoo.

once it stops hurting so much I'm going to plow these commissions

Aaaaand of course

Thu May 2, 2013, 10:23 AM
I should stop taking commissions, bad shit always happens after I do.
I'm going to finish the ones I have, however, as fucking quick as I can because I dont want to have to trudge through them later.

Grandma has become increasingly sick, and with my grandpa in Atlanta right now, it's fallen on me to take care of her, which has caused me to miss work [that despite me showing the doctor's notes and everything] and got me written up for absenses. So now the next time I do anything wrong at all, I'm fired. Fired for taking care of my grandmother LOL. So I'm job hunting right now and trying to get back into school. If I cant find a new job by the time Registration closes for college, then I'm going to go to school full time and only work at wal-mart on the weekends.
and that's just one thing on top of everything else LOL. I am slipping into a very bad depression, I can feel it. I'm trying my damnest to stay positive and be distracted and happy but shit just keeps piling on to the point where I can barely sleep at night for so many worries running through my head. To the point where on yesterday at work I might have muttered 10 words the entire day, preferring not to speak or socialize with anyone. I feel very alone, and I'm sick of it and I hate it. I'm considering moving back in with my roomates if only so I can be around people again more often. IDK, I am very tired and weary.

And now I am done ranting. I'm staying off furc for the most part but feel free to send me notes or hit me up on skype.

Speeding Ticket Commissions

Sat Apr 27, 2013, 6:14 PM
So yeah.
Got a speeding ticket, and it rounds up to 200$, that I don't really want to come totally out of pocket with. So I'm going to attempt to pay for as much of it as I can with money made off commissions.

So I'm offering waist-up and bust commissions as follows:

All prices are USD and are given based on the complexity of the piece!

Sketches: 5-15$


Lineart: 7-25$



Flat Color + lineart: 10-30$


Painted: 15+$





I'm only taking two at a time to make sure I get them done , unless both spots are something simple. Send me a note if you're interested even if my spots are filled!

Info I need:
Name:
Sex:
Species:
References:
Mood/pose:
Background:

1. Open
2. Open

Spring cleaning

Tue Mar 19, 2013, 12:49 PM
So after much consideration and some inspiration from others, on top of being bored with a feeling my own art has  become stale and lacks personal style and creativity, I'm going to sit down and relearn how to draw, going back through my anatomy and drawing books and relearning how to draw by hand, then moving back up to digital. I think my art has become dry, impersonal to me and mechanical. So I want to rediscover my
Own style and creativity.

Also Internet installed on Thursday!

Nothing but more updates

Mon Feb 18, 2013, 12:07 PM
- trying to get back into art
-planning on doing some studies and trying to re-learn how to art
-going to do a lot of practice on women

-Had a wreck at work, I cannot get written up again or I get fired
-Meaning: I'm looking for a new job
-Soon to be moving again
- Sick with a stomach virus
-life sucks

yep

Sat Jan 12, 2013, 9:25 AM
This week in news:
-Get the flu
-father yells at me over phone and threatens to take away my car and MY money in MY bank account because I didn't answer one text from him
-I make plans to go to my hometown to get my money transfered from our joint account to my personal one
-Almost get abducted by my own mother
-she threatens to call the police on me if I don't Answer my text messages every day
-I threaten to have her committed
-she leaves
-sends me an apology the next day, which I respond to with a 'sure'
-work cuts my hours
-whoo

so yeah with less hours at work I should have more free time to maybe get some art done now.

Sick

Mon Jan 7, 2013, 4:08 PM
IDK whats wrong with me but it's been slowlycoming, but this week it's gotten horrible. I get extreme bouts of virtigo to the point where my bass has stopped allowing me to drive cars. However it doesn't effect my driving or usually when I am sitting, it's just walkingand doing things. But these swooning spells are giving me other injuries asI often fall on top of/into things. I keep knocking my healing hands and nowI've got a few new gashes across my palms, bruised elbows and a knot on my head, and a cut on my arm. I feel sick, physically weak, dizzy, and like I am going to puke a lot of the time, but I never do. I stagger and stumble and swoon, and my coworkers can rarely catch me in time. Once I fell out in front of a customer and he reported me to my manager, causing me to lose my ability to drive cars  in and out of the shop.
The knuckles on my fractured fingers still hurt like bitches. On top of that, the soap Iuse at my work is drying my hands out so bad that it's turned the skin on the backs of my hands red and black, and causes the skin to crack open painfully and bleed. The cold makes my fingers stiff, which in turns makes my sore knuckles hurt even worse.
And my mind has turned to mush, again, I've lost all creativity and all I want to do is curl up someplace warm and sleep.

Hand Fracture + New Laptop

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 30, 2012, 4:21 PM
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Hi guys! Don't start panicing just yet. But you guys remember when I told you that I had fucked up my hand at work? And I wasn't sure if I had broken it or not?
Well it turns out that I had fractured three of my knuckles when I did that, because it's been two or three weeks, they are still sore and tender, and they are starting to get calcium build-ups under the skin where it broke.

What does this mean? Nothing. Even if I had gone to the doctor right away, he would have just given me a splint and patted me on the back. But I didn't. So I was told there is nothing that can be done at this point unless I want to re-break the bone [UH NO] and it turns out the bones didn't set right. Which isn't crippling but he said I will be unlikely able to fully extend my index and middle fingers for a long, long time/ forever. It's not really severe, I can extend them out fairly well but not nearly as straight as I can my other fingers. And it still kind of hurts to try. so yeah... SORRY I WASNT ABLE TO WORK ON ART

Speaking of, my muse is slowly coming back to me it doesn't help that my new laptop is FUCKING AMAZING. My old machine [Steve] would take 5 minutes to load up PS and could barely run join.me and photoshop at the same time. But this one starts up PS in an instant and can even play borderlands 2 on pretty high settings and RUNS LIKE A CHAARRRMMM and I love it, and thusly I have dubbed him Alfred.

so yeah.. ART SOON AND STUFF HOPEFULLYYYY

But probably not until after Thursday, because New YEars + I work 45 hours this week


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Happy Holidays!

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 25, 2012, 5:37 AM
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I hope you all are enjoying the season!

I gota new laptop! I amtrying to get adjusted to it... the keyboard and mouse are not as sensitive as my old one, and It's also running Windows 8 which is weird but I am trying to get used to i! :D

My old Laptop, Steve, is now almost two and a half years old and had agood run! But he was starting to overheat a lot and the mousepad didn't work and the power button would stick, and the battery was shot but... I HAVE ANEW ONE!! I named him ALFRED
Now to install Photoshop and SAI and my tablet and errythang else back on it


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Liissstttss + TGT secret Santa

Journal Entry: Fri Dec 21, 2012, 8:16 AM
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TGT Secret Santas: Due to the Impending Apocolypse I am going to extend the deadline to December 31st so people may be able to recover from any brimstone and fire damage.


Things I owe people:
1. Heimdall Trade
2. TGT secret Santa - 1/2 done
3. Naida Leila art for sub
4. FPA secret santa


Commissions:
1. Aethiops - sketched
2.  Jacob Cross - 10$ port
3. Thorgrim - 10$ port
4. Dense - regular port


Commissions I am waiting for:
*Goregoat - Raginfrik Port
~aitsena - Raginfrik art
~rhardo - peppe art
my tgt secret santa
~aquadark - Ragin and Ulf port
Jeeves - Peppe Port


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Whoo fuckin hoo

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 8, 2012, 5:29 PM
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Guess who fucked up their hands again

*points to self* aww yeah.

So yep. We have these giant sliding grates that cover the entrance to "the pit" where we go to get under the cars to work.

Well it just so happened I crushed my hand between two while trying to slam them closed today. It busted the skin on the middle joints of my index and middle finger and now those joints are swollen and a nasty purple-black and hurt like a motherfucker. I can still bend them ever so slightly so I don't think they are broken.. maybe just cracked? Or I just hit them REALLY fucking hard?

Regardless, I can barely turn a dorbknob, much less my tablet pen


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Commissions closed!

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 23, 2012, 8:09 AM
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LIKE EVERYONE ELSE I have a great deal for you my friends.

I am going to start out with just 10 slots but I may do more depending on how fast I can finish these.

but.. 10$ ports! And I'm taking 10 slots!  If you want one,  note me! You can take as many slots as you want, IDGAF. I will do regular or painted, just request it.

1. Thorgrim
2. Jacob Cross


Other commissions: [If you got a port I am going to do yours first! Anything larger I will work on in between!]
Commissions:

2. Lucilla - sketched
3. Aethiops - sketching
4. Dense - Port



After this queue is done, I will be raising my port prices.


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Commissions - spots full!

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 15, 2012, 5:00 AM
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Commissions:
1. Annibale...?
2. Lucilla - Port
3. Aethiops - tba
4. Dense - Port


I haven't seen one of my commissioners in a while but I've finished *almost* all my other art obligations but I am in dire need of Cash because I'm trying to save up for a new laptop! Mine is about ready to kick the bucket :C

So.. this is what I am going to attempt to do.

either:

Name your Own price - tell me what you want to pay and I'll tell you what I'll give to you for it [I probably won't be accepting any really huge pieces]

Name what you want- Just tell me what you want and I'll price it.

I'm taking really limited slots on this. IF you want a bunch of smaller pieces [like, 3 ports or 2 busts w/e] then I'll slap you down as one, otherwise I will probably only take one or two commissions from one or two people.

What I am doing:
Anything. Flats. Sketches. Linearts. Painting. I don't care.


So uh, just shoot me a note.

If you want to do the "name what you want", then fill this out:


Art type(sketch, port, lineart etc):
Distance: (bust, waist up, full body)
Number of characters in the image:
Where else I can reach you(E-mail, furcadia screenanmes, DA names, FA, etc etc): You must give me one ACTIVE way to alternatively reach you.

Name of character:
Apparent age:
Sex:
Species:
Description of PHYSICAL attributes and/or reference images:
Hair:
Eye color:
Skin color:
Markings/other skin stuff:
Clothing/accessories:
Pose preference(s):
Personality or general mood you want reflected (angry, flirty, etc.):
Background:
Color Theme: (optional, I like to use a dominant color in my images, if you have on in particular, let me know)


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back to art soon

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 13, 2012, 2:38 PM


My blood blister has busted and I squeezed all the blood out and it turned into a hard, dry callous. Now I can hold things again.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

You gotta be kidding me

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 7, 2012, 5:52 PM


JUST AS I START GETTING IN THE MOOD TO DRAW AGAIN.

I go and smash the ever loving SHIIIIT out of my thumb. and get afucking GIGANTIC, EXCRUCIATINGLY PAINFUL blood blister on it.

Meaning I can't hold any writing ustensils, I.e. my tablet pen without satan himself stabbing my hand.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

Well

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 1, 2012, 6:21 PM


I'm sorry to say but there's going to be another small hold on commissions. I just found out today that I'm going to be going to two funerals in the next week. One for my grandmother, who died suddenly early sometime this morning, and the other for an old highschool friend of mine who died in a car accident. And those are all the details I have on their deaths, even. No idea how or why my grandmother died, and no one knows how the car accident happened or who else was involved.

My grandmother's visitation and my friend's funeral is tomorrow, and I'm leaving work early to go there, and then her funeral is saturday,.

Combined with more shitty things that I am tried of dealing with that happened today, I've just lost my drive to do anything. So my Nanowrimo writing is halted, and so is my artwork. I just can't handle anything else today, I've had enough.

This is the most emotionally and physically drained I have been for a long, lond time, if not my entire life. Today was just a really shitty day with the deaths and everything else that happened.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

Selling some alts

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 27, 2012, 8:53 PM


Hey guys, as much as I hate to do this, I'm selling two alts

The first is Volkaan, his port can be found in my gallery. I'm asking 25$ for him, he's a feral dog design with a port by Moltenchier.

The second is Abd-al-Aziz, a parrot-bat mix which can also be found in my gallery for 25$ with name and design, 20 for just the design.

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

Livestream + Quick Port commissions!

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 25, 2012, 7:15 AM


[link]

Come watch and get a port! c:


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If any of my current commissioners are online when I start the livestream, their ports will take priority. [Even if you guys are NOT there I plan on finishing your ports in the next few days! Work has just been rough and tiresome!]

As for quick commissions, I will be taking 2 port commissions [maybe a third] on the spot.

To get one, fill this out and whisper Raginfrik when I call for them in the stream. If you get there first/early and I haven't started anything yet, feel free to try and snag a spot then too.

These ports cost 15$ and I will ask for the money once you approve the sketch.

Name:

References:

Mood:

Pose:

Background:

Colortheme:

Paypal email:

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

Secret Santa Goes out today!

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 21, 2012, 8:32 PM


Edit: Notes are out! If you applied and didn't get a note, let me know RIGHT AWAY. And hopefully I did everything right. If by the deadline you don't get any art AND were actually assigned to someone I will TRY and sketch you something.

If it was a fluke on my behalf, I will definitely do something for you.

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Notes are going out today!

Some of you may get 2 notes, as I realized HALFWAY through the list that.. all the links from DA were broken. AHEM. My apologies


Commissions I am waiting on:
~aitsena
*Goregoat

My bros
:iconpeking1911: :iconaitsena: :iconkrypticraven: :iconthescreamingnorth: :iconisolationary: :iconhooke: :icontartthief: :icondivorce-me: :iconpostey: :icongypsycorset: :iconliquidchaos: :iconcenturies-before: :iconnoxlamiarum: :icongoregoat: :iconmoltenchier: :iconthecultclassic:

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